The week leading to Easter has and continues to speak even when I am not fully aware or listening. Yet this gentle nudges, gracious Love continues to watch over and love just as I am without force of any invasion. Very gently and slowly, I tune in and listen the call in my heart.
This is the first arrangement I was asked to do when I first arrived L'Arche London community in 2006. A community of adults with learning difficulties and without who are Assistants who supports,works, live, play, celebrate, cry, fight, cook, eat, pray and everything together.
The resurrected cross. I was honored to arrange them.The whole process from start to end was all left on my own device. I was independent of making a choice and making it happen no matter how or what it turned out. The beauty of L'Arche community all over the world. You are loved, accepted and belonged - just as you are!
The following year LilSistah Hwa (aka Sherin) was very honored to played Jesus, the very year she arrived in the community and she walked one station of the cross to the next carrying the cross to The Vine house. Sharing life and work, building deeper relationship with people with special needs was truly an experience of a lifetime plus, to share holy week and Easter with everyone who came from all over the world.
Oh yes! Her wished came true, too. Snow! It snowed on Easter. Never before ever in history we were told that it snowed but it did, just for LisSistah Hwa.
The whole story of Maundy Thursday - washing of the feet, Good Friday, Holy Saturday and Easter Sunday - Christ's ressurection came to live for her, for the first time in her life. She realised God’s deep and wondrous, unconditional love. So, begins both both our stories coming together. Our journey of healing and reconciliation.
The year where our sisterly relationship dug deeper and deeper and we had the opportunity to trash and throw out many a conversation which was very challenging, difficult and painful about our struggles being sisters. The differences in our thoughts, perceptions, outlook and you name it - everything!
We cried many tears, we laughed many a joyous moment, we fought, we love each other so deeply yet we hurt each other so deeply, so unconsciously just because we were just such different and unique special persons in our own selves. We were just ‘day’ and ‘night’.
Yet during that year, we were blessed with the grace and love of healing and reconciliation. Our deep love for one another was undeniable and inseparable. We both found a much deeper connection base on our love and the unconditional love of God. We finally found much peace with ourselves and being sisters, it's ok to have our differences and the main things was acceptance even though it's not understood. It was ok.
That was the year of our turning point as blood sisters.
I miss you so much. My heart bleeds and weeps when I think of you and start missing you. Yet, I know somewhere in me you have resurrected, risen. No longer suffers this human life's sufferings. Your spirit is free and you are soaring high above. Places and dreams are infinite, only the limitatopm of my imagination.
You had a heart of precious gold. I knew then in my head yet, I know now in a much deeper sense - in my heart I never knew before until now. How precious this realisation is. Tears of healing and deeper reconciliation of our spirits are taking place as I write this experience now.
Deep inside, I believe it is far more greater than any unimaginable experience uip are experiencing now. Your dreams to paint. I bet you are painting your dream life now! in a realm where none of us are capable of fathoming or imagining in this tiny little understanding or comprehension mind or heart.
You have evolved. You are everywhere. It's only a thought or memory away ... that's where you are now. You hear. You listen to my innermost being, the unspoken voice and thoughts in my heart and mind.
Fly. Evolve. Be what you were meant to be in your next life.
I love you, my Darling Beloved LisSistah Hwa <3 span="">
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