Freedom

Today, as I looked back at one of  my journal written on a Silent Retreat last year at St. Beuno's Jesuit Spiritual Center in Wales how I was then still searching for 'this' freedom I long for which I am still searching for even now.
Makes me wonder if I will ever find it?
Yet, somewhere along my longing and search is continually bringing me another step closer to myself and my heart.
In that alone, I can rest in peace knowing I am flying without wings and IT'S ALRIGHT!


"Grant me the freedom to trust You, to be, to love, to live, to give, to receive, to accept what I cannot understand, to embrace the pains of my life, to embrace the difficulties-struggles-sorrows of my life-the anxieties of the unknown, the not knowing what my next step or chapter in life is going to take me; to have the acceptance-clarity of not knowing and IT'S ALRIGHT.

Grant me Your freedom, Your clarity
Set me free to be the person you have made and created me to my fullest potential and capacity.

Grant that I know this deep in my innermost being
As you have called me to be"

"For the rest of my days,
I will embrace myself, loved in Your heart, Your being in one with me
Called by my name
You have summoned me
To freedom of being
To trust in Your unfailing love - unconditional love everlasting
To embrace life at it's fullest
To honor and respect each of your created being just as You love them
To drink of Your grace, kindness, love, spirit, goodness, gentleness
To savour You
To bask inYour love, goodness, tenderness
To be engulf by your burning light - fire - desires and passion that I may be set ablaze, too
To soak in Your great pool of love, mercies & grace
All this I pray and surrender"

[15 June, 2012. Journal Book 6]