Mid September, I went for a Silent Retreat "Praying Our Belovedness" at Maranatha Retreat House near Genting Highlands. Henri Nouwen's "Life of the Beloved" is the inspiration of this retreat and Sr. Bubbles, r.c. (Cenecal Sister from the Philippines) was the retreat director who guided us through a journey to help us discover that we are the Beloved!, a 'coming home' to the reality of the Love of our lives, which was there before we experience any rejection and will remain even after all other rejections take place.
Excerpts from my journal (Henri's writing inter-minggling with mine) :
"For me it is not getting something out of my system but to take in, that deepens & strengthens my sense of goodness & allow my anguish/wounds to be embraced by Love
I will discover, the more Love I can take in & hold on to, the less fearful I will become (let this prayer manifest in me. Be real in my life, where I no longer fear tomorrow, people or anything which the mysteries of life brings coz' I have You, Lord)
I will speak more simply, more directly, more freely about what is important to me without fear of other's rejection (my utmost prayer, too)
I will use fewer words. Trusting that I communicate my true self even when I do no speak much
(which I have observed in some friends who God have graciously allowed us to cross paths)
The more I come to know myself (spirit, mind & body) as truly Loved, the freer I will be
This is the freedom I long for as a child of God"
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