Malaysia my Homeland

After being away from Malaysia for 10 years, I am home again!

So far.. it's been great.... I'm still on holiday and am learning to continue to enjoy every moment I have with Mi, Pa, siblings, nieces, nephews, friends and relatives.
Being more mindful and aware of every moments, taking my time and just being.
Having loads of conversation with my Lil'Sistah and her better half, with Mi, Pa, brother, little and growing ones :)
I have also had the privilege to paint and draw with my Lil'Sistah at the gallery she goes to.
That was certainly definately one of my highlights being in the capital city with her (last week), visiting art galleries, shops, cultural and art places (earlier last month).

How time has flown by!
I left England with my Sweetheart on April Fool's Day and soon it'll be two months since I've been home (my kampong).
Almost one month since my Sweetheart went back and I miss him 346!

So much has happened since I've been away
- massive development in architecture, infrastructure, economy, arts, culture, tradition, people, way of living, spending, owning ... and on and on... I can go on...

I see development and destruction, growth and stunt, forwardness and backwardness ...

But most of all... with development of buildings, more and more trees are being chopped down to make way for them and that's what saddens me greatly.

No wonder it's so bloody hot and humid... I'm melting! in the heat.

Home grown vegetable patch by Mi.

Self Portrait

It doesn't interest me if there is one God
or many gods.
I want to know if you belong or feel
abandoned.
If you know despair or can see it in others.
I want to know
if you are prepared to live in the world
with its harsh need
to change you. If you can look back
with firm eyes
saying this is where I stand. I want to know
if you know
how to melt into that fierce heat of living
falling toward
the center of your longing. I want to know
if you are willing
to live, day by day, with the consequence of love
and the bitter
unwanted passion of your sure defeat.

I have heard, in that fierce embrace, even
the gods speak of God.

Self Portrait -- David Whyte
from Fire in the Earth
©1992 Many Rivers Press

Do you mean it?

It`s not where you go when you die
It`s how you live when you`re alive
Who you touch and how you feel it?
It`s not about the time that you have
It`s how you cry and how you laugh
Who you love and how you mean it
And do you mean it?

Never Let Go

Can you (I) lay your (my) life down, so a stranger can live?
Can you (I) take what you (I) need, but take less than you (I) give?
Could you (I) close every day, without the glory and fame?
Could you (I) hold your (my) head high, when no one knows your (my) name?

That's how legends are made?
At least that's what they say.

We (I) say goodbye, but never let go.
We (I) live, we (I) die coz you (I) can't save every soul.
Gotta take every chance to
Show you're (Am I) the kindda man (person) who
Never looks back, never looks down.
And never let go (?).

Can you (I) lose everything, you (I) ever had planned?
Can you (I) sit down again, and play another hand?
Could you (I) risk everything, for the chance of being alone?
Under pressure find the grace, or would you (I) come undone?

Song: Never Let Go by Bryan Adams